For two days, yesterday and the day before...
I have been going to the CCM talk...
It was really fun and good...
First day was like they taught us how to teach the students using an easy and fun way of teaching when teaching the four tones of chinese characters...
There were actually two classes...
For my class, there were about 30-35 teachers...
I not too sure about the other class...
From there we actually know each other quite fast...
The class was actually a bit of serious but somehow we have a few 'jokers' who really made this class laugh and won't let this class feel so serious all the time...
The second day, they required us to prepare one of the lessons and showcase to the other teachers...
I was the first, really nervous and excited...
Got a few comments, of course majority found that I'm good...
For my class, including me, there were only 7 youngsters...
Of these 7, 3 are guys...
Of course we will get each other's phone number and msn...
There's actually one more middle-aged guy...
He's very funny with the other two youngster guy...
Keep making us laugh...
I returned to school to return the things I borrowed...
I actually met Mr. Yip and Ms. Ma...
I actually told them that I want to help the current sec4s and sec5s chinese oral...
So I was like wanting to have a so-called mock chinese oral and test all of them, at one shot...
So Mr. Yip told me to tell Mdm Yong about this...
Is like I look at their CA results, not of much 'A's as we expected...
Mr. Tan, our principal, wants a 2.9 msg for this year's 'O' Levels...
Last year, my batch got 3.9...
Really crazy about this loh...
For this standard is really hard to do it one loh...
Anyway, I'll try my very best to help them as I can...

Got to go le...bye...

I've changed my song...
From 'Blue Ridge Saga' to these three songs...
These three are sang by a cartoon character name Tomoyo Daidouji from the cartoon Cardcaptor Sakura...
Her voice is very sweet and nice...
Whoever listens to these to these three songs will really relax...
I like her voice, really nice...
Must listen leh!!!

Got to go le...bye...

Flu for four days le...
It hasn't stopped...
Help me ah...
Feel so stressed up even though school has not reopen yet...
Parents nagging...
Yes, Iam lazy, I am fat, fatter than before...
Cannot use my illness as an excuse anymore...
Keep hurrying me to find a job...
Today...hais...
All I want to do is just teaching...
But my parents want me to do something realistic...rather than waiting for the school to call...
My mum always used her past life to compare with me...
Past is past, present is present...
I know they want me me to be down-to-earth, want me to slim down...
Maybe it just purely laziness that i couldn't even control...
What i need is just some motivation...
People have been seeing me growing fatter and fatter...

I just don't know what is wrong with this world...
Purchasing our own interest has become a major problem...
i really hate myself for my laziness, my stubborn-ness and my slow reaction...
I'm really kind of tire...of this world...
Even for my own birthday...
Don't really have that feeling and mood to celebrate...
I just want alone...
In a space of my own...
With my own interest...
A world of my own...
To relax with my hobby...
Forever and ever....
In the space and world of my own...
Don't know where to go, what to do...
To leave this pressurising world...
To leave this realistic world...
To leave this hopeless world...
To a place of my interest...
To a place of my style...
To a place of magical hopes for me...
How I wish that will be my wish for my birthday...
Cast a spell on me...
End me with a thousand years of sleep...
Enable me to wake in a land of wish...
Let me be one who is totally 'different'...in terms of wisdom and health...
Let it be a disguise of my terrible past...
Enable me to forget who I was once before...
The one of his laziness, slow-reacted and stubborning character which will not be forgiven...
I really want to sleep soundlessly and endlessly without anyone's knowledge...
On my birthday...alone and silent shall company me forever...and ever...

Got to go le...bye...

Woke up early in the morning just to see a message from the MOE...
I still can remember the time that it was sent...6:17:14...
'MOE: Congrats CRUYFF CHUA, you are posted to NGEE ANN POLY, NETWORK SYSTEM & SECURITY (N64) under 2008 JAE'...
At first was like total disappointment that I couldn't get into Early Childhood Education...
What really came through my mind firstly was, I wanted to appeal for it...
I was like, having no mood to sleep anymore...
I just went straight to my laptop and searched the modules of the course...
What came in my mind was, 'shitty course'...
In the morning. already got people conversing with me online regarding the posting results...

"Good ones snatched from me,
Bad ones pushed to me.
Heaven's playing a fool with me,
Hell's trying to drag me.
What will really happen to me?"

Today was also my seventh day of work...
Today was like bit of different...
Kai Ling couldn't call Christina because something happened to her which I think she would not want us to expose in this post, neither in the future posts...
So she met me at the school gate...
When the time that the lesson suppose to start, Christina rushed in the nick of time...
She doesn't seemed sad...still as cheerful as she usually is...
Today my class was like kind of boring and tired...

After class, i rushed to Ngee Ann Polytechnic for the JAE Appeal Exercise...
I wasn't able to appeal because my L1R4 couldn't match with the cut-off point...
Was being counselled by one of the officers there...
When i rushed back, I quickly flipped through the 'JAE 2008' booklet and see whether there are still courses left for me to appeal...
At first I got this idea of getting into 'Product Design & Innovation'...is a engineering course...
I was about to appeal online when I was stopped by my mother...
She called me to phone my father and seek his opinion before doing anything...
I called, he replied that he's busy and will talk to me when he's back...
My mother was like, kept comforting and consoling me, told me not to be disheartened and hugged me...
I was like really want to cry...
But I drew back my tears...
During dinner, she's still tried her best to counsel me...
Forgot to mention, I had thought of going to Arts School if I can't get into the desired course that i wanted...
But both my parents said that there's not really much future for me if I go into Arts School...
'Music can only be your hobby...'
'If you want to survive in the future, you'll need to take up something that is required in the future...'
'You can join the band in NP, I don't mind, as long as you can coop...'
That time I really wanted to cry, also...
But I didn't...
Now, came to think of it...
I tried to think positively towards this course...
Actually it's not that bad...
Who knows whether in the future, an IT idiot will become a genius?
Well, still waiting for my father to return...
I wish everybody good luck in your new school!

Got to go le...bye...

Yesterday was my sixth day of work...
Actually was kind of a satisfactory...
In the morning was like got myself confused of time...
But in the end, I still need to rush...
I rushed for my class and a few students started rushing out to tell me that they couldn't make it...
There were also the usual normal people trying to run away...
Mdm Yong and I managed to rush in and scolded the class...
The first half of the lesson was normal, people kept reminding me of the time to have their break which was suppose to be 20min...
After their break, I actually told them stories of Emperor Taizong tour the hell...
At least for this, I can get their attention...
After class, Christina, Kai Ling and me were helping out the teachers with the feedback forms which was passed down to the students to feedback regarding the CNY concert...
It was really kind of tiring...
Then went to look at the band practising in the field...
Kind of funny, but also kind of confusing for them...
Lots of new stuffs have been add in to make it more interesting...
I had also inspected the storeroom which had been spring-cleaned...
It was really a great well done...
Good job, people!

In the evening, went to see a piano concert in NUS with Mr. Lee...
One of my seniors, Clarence Lee, is performing as well...
It was really fantastic...
After the concert, I saw a guy with Clarence's mother, was like so familiar...
Then when she introduced him to us, I was kind of shocked and knew about it...
That guy is the Big Boss of Macdonald's...
I was like thinking, this is the first day I could get a close approach with the Big Boss...
When I was working in Macdonald's in the past, I only get to see him or hear him...
But now, I'd resigned long time ago and I could get to chat and shake hands with him...
It was really such an honour...

When I reached home, I was about to blog but something cropped up in the family...
Is regarding my sister again...
But of course, there are certain things which cannot be told...
Especially when comes to family problems...

Got to go le...bye...

As usual, not really excited about occasions like this...
New Year, Chinese New Year, even my own birthday which will be this coming March...
All this keeps going on and on...
Kind of tired...
Yesterday,(as usual again) went to my great-grandmother's house...
All my relatives were squeezing in that house...
Every year's the same, all generations, young and old will always go to her house on the first day of Chinese New Year, is standard...
Then got to visit another great-grandmother who is in a Old Folks' Home at Geylang...
Her husband, my great-grandfather, came there on his own...
Lots of laughter as well...

For today, I went to my great-grandaunt's house...
Also got to see relatives whom I had never seen before...
I had this uncle who is just 18 and a aunt who is in her 20...
People like them don't really like us to call them uncle and aunty because of the age...
But because of the generation, no choice...
Kind of stressful when I always make this visit to my relatives of the top generation...
Why?
My grandfather is the elders among his generation and siblings...
My father is the elders among his generation and siblings...
For me, it is obvious that I'm the elders of my generations and siblings...
Many people and relatives kept asking me whether i have a girlfriend or not, when I want to find a girlfriend to carry on a fifth generation, so as not to let my them worry...
You see?! Stress or not?!
I don't know why, for the past two days, I have been thinking about Stephanie...
Somehow, still have this feeling that I cannot let go of her...
My mother even wants to a match-making for me...
I also want to find a girlfriend, also want to marry young, but look at me first...
In this world, there's no second girl who is as good as Stephanie, nor even better than her...
Really tired of them keep telling me the same thing...
Seeing that all my young aunties and uncles having boyfriends and girlfriends respectively...
I really feel so 'extra'...
Really really regret that I didn't get the address from Mr. Dinesh...
Sometimes really feel that god is playing a fool with me...
Feel like crying...
Even my friends are going out on a date while I'm still single...
I think I better stop here lah...
The more I say, the more I want to cry...

Got to go le...bye...

Today is my fifth day of work in CSS...
It was kind of chaotic today...
As usual, I rushed to school to print my lesson and I also had printed one of my tougue twisters...
Christina and Kai Ling came quite late...
I told Christina about the new arrangement of time...
As expected, she got shocked, if not, she would be 'late' for her lesson...
I tried my best to rush up but it was almost too late...
Most of the students got away even before the bell rang...
Left only 6 students with me...
I had no choice but not going through the lesson, I just go through the tougue twister...
I was teaching halfway when Mdm. Yong came pass my class and told my class to be combined with Christina's class...
Then out of the three NA classes, two will be transferred to me...
I restarted the tougue twister...
At least this two classes are better than my NT class...
After class, kind of busy that I need to go through the attendance...
I was about to leave when my Baritone Saxophone Senior, Chye Soon came...
He thought that Mr. Lee was in school so he came back...
But was kind of disappointed...
I rushed to the chinese Sensei as fast as I could, because I myself was like too exhausted to travel already...
Then was the same old thing, acupuncture and cupping but this time round was much painful than the previous...
Could have been too tired...
When I reached home, I had my 'bruncher'...
Breakfast+lunch+dinner...
Pathetic right?!
Cannot tahan...
The same old phrase also comes out...
Very Tired...
Hahahahahahahaha...
I think many of you are missing my laughter liao...
Hahahahahahahaha...
Ok lah, those who want, I can record down and send it to you...

Got to go le...bye...

Finally, I've got my links breaking 100...
Actually I had more than 100 links long time ago but in the middle, a few people stopped blogging and I had to delete their links but their were also new links coming in that made this record possible...
I know sometimes I may not be blogging but also at the same time there are also not much of people tagging...
I know for now there are many people either schooling or working like me(but I work seldomly)...
For now I still need to find the way to get into the MOE website to register for relieve teacher...
Next tuesday I'll be going back to my school for teaching again and I'll asking him the registration thing...
Once I got it, I'll ask Bronte, my Apache friend, to register with me also...
Like I said before, teaching could be my only way of surviving, be it plain working or for my future experience...

Another thing is, like many people know that the posting resultswill be coming out around 18th February, if the results is not to my liking, I might consider going to Lasalle Arts School...
I don't even know whether it is late to do the registration now...
As for this, I'll ask my teacher also...
Ever since I'd take up this 3rd language teaching, I have quite a few people asking me to teach their child/children chinese...
Like my former music teacher, Mr. Leong, who revealed that his son is primary 5 and still couldn't make it for his chinese...
So he has considered me to go and teach him...
I have to say, for language, it is purely interests...
Another thing is the family...
If the family has the habit of speaking just one language and totally neglect about the other one, I bet that this person will be having a had time training himself for that language...
Is not that I'm 'language-ist' lah...
But I really feel that chinese tougue twister is much more interesting than English...
This is personal opinion, hope there's no offence...
If you want to improve both your language, make it a habit that you can maintain both languages by speaking both language and not just one...

Go to go le...bye...