Today was like hell and heaven...
Why hell?
Today's class was not so lah, very tired leh....
Had my ELTECH lecture, was kind of usual, Mr. Lau is always as serious he is....
Maths, don't talk about it....
Don't know why, I've been running about the classroom just to hel people for maths...
As if I'm the maths pro like that....
Actually I'm happy to help lah...classmates mah.....
After break, had my ELTECH tutorial and internetworking....

After school, MOBBING!!!!
I met Jeremy and Sarah at the Atrium with the other SLs....
At the same time, I met Yvelyn....
Was so happy to see her but too bad, she didn't go for the mobbing but she signed up for the ambassador....
Mobbing was so fun, that's heaven....
We performed twice of the mass dance....
I like the second one even more because it was more organised....
Had lots of photo sessions...
Then went home with Jeremy and Sarah....
Was kind of tired but really, it was truly fantastic...
Thanks, SLs, for the wonderful time!

Back to Sembawang, was really desperate for water so I went to Macdonalds'....
Too bad that Lawrence and his friends had left when I arrived....
But then I met Hafizah, Nadira and Elinur....
Then I saw that it was having a long quene so I went to KFC....
Then when I came back, met my seniors, and I also met my wellington friends, Atiqah and Farah...
Then came home with no energy left...haha...

Got to go le...bye...

Hi, it's been a week since I last post...
This whole week was crazy man....
Not enough sleep is one of them....

On thursday, I had my band practice at 6.30pm till 9pm...
Later was extended and i left the school with Faiezah like almost reaching 10pm....
I reached home at 11pm plus and slept at 12midnight plus....

Friday evening, I went to the Buy-U-A-Tea(aka BUAT) session which was met for NP Redcampers....
I had fun and eat a lot....
Then we proceed to the Atrium for a mass dance...
We had danced 3 times and by then I was perspiring like hell....
Before I left with Sarah, Keann suddenly passed me the microphone and called me to laugh...
I was like tired like hell already but since they missed my laughter so much so I laughed....
With my vampire laughter....
Then I went to Outrum Park to meet my family and we went to Swensen to have our dinner...
I was really full with just one pizza....
I'm a guy which will really lose my appetite when I'm really tired....

Today was like very tired also...
I woke up at like 6.45am like that...
Reached Canberra Secondary School for a brisk walk thingy...
Then I met Rayner, Jessinta, Joel and a guy which I'm not too sure of his name....
Jessinta and his brother, Joel, was force to come for this....
Jessinta was still in her sleepy mode....
Then we had our 2km walk...
Later we had our breakfast...
I drank a Milo and a can of 100plus....
In the end, I shit-ted heavily....
So my friends out there, please do not 'mix' Milo and 100plus....
In the afternoon, went for Band at NP...
Attendance was like hell man....
Then evening I went to the NSS Barbeque....
Not much people but at least I'm able to get my fill....
Really tired...I really need some rest already...

Got to go le...bye...

Yea!!!
I got an award!!!
Well, today is the Canberrans' Day...
Apart from the fact that I'm conducting the band, I'm also one of the award winners....
Well, basically I received the Service Merit Award...
This award is just to show how I've done in my band....
Actually to get awards like this is not so easy....
You really have to put in a lot of effort in your CCA that you've participated....
Is not that I want to boast myself...but in fact, a lot of people know that I'd actually spent more time in CCA than in my schoolwork....which is not advisable.....

I was really nervous this morning....
Having the thought of conducting the band was really making me so excited....
Finally, I can reveal my wish already, actually one of my wish was to conduct the band and it really came true....
I'm so happy....
Another thing was that, Mr. Puvan was the one who present our awards to us which really made me felt honoured....

Then after I came down from the stage, I actually reported to Mrs. Teo that I need to leave for another place....
Actually what was the place?
It was my school band, as in Ngee Ann Polytechnic Concert Band(NPCB)...
By right it was suppose to start at 10am but I was excused for the games because of the Canberrans' Day....
Then I reached there like about 12noon....
It was actually time for lunch....
Then we came back at 1pm for band practice....
My conductor, Mr. Tan(Can't remember his full name as it is so long)....was quite a nice guy....
Then we went through tuning which I had never done before in my secondary school band...
Then we went through chorales, is actually a polytechnic version of 'I Recommand'...
Then we went through like 5 pieces of music....
Firstly I skimmed through all the pieces, i was totally shocked when I see rhythms that I have never see before...
And it was really my first time playing with the band without stopping....
It just went through the whole piece....
There were like not much stopping....
It totally crazy....
Then after playing, I felt like it was not difficult at all, I was like feeling totally shiok after playing....
It was so fun and exciting to hear music which I heard before and now I'm playing it...
I can just describe in one word: cool....
Then another thing that shocked me was...
One of my primary schoolmates happens to be one of the clarinetists....
Her name is called Faiezah....
After band, we actually got into the same bus...
She was like totally forgotten about me le....so sad....
But I tried my very best to refresh her memory....
She's still managed to remember some people is our class during our primary school times....
Then we had a long chat till we reached Admiralty where she live....
When I reached back to Sembawang, I saw a few of my band juniors still around at the bubble tea shop....
Then went home....

Oh yes! Forgot to mention....
I'll be having a concert with my band during the first week of the June break....
Then at the end of the year will be a competition and a final year concert as well so it will be like kind of stressful but this is somehow what we should be experiencing....

Got to go le...bye...

Actually byright I'm suppose to post something about my new school environment....
But it seems that it has been interrupted by something....
Actually I'm really feeling quite down now....
Sometimes i really couldn't control my tears....
I just really feel like crying....
And I don't know why, I'm crying now....
Mainly first is my wound....
I don't know just how long this thing wants to 'threaten' me....
I was at first felt kind of relieve to hear from an experience doctor that I don't need anymore surgery as he said that more surgery will make it worst....
But it does broke my heart when he said that this thing will last maybe a decade or more...
Which I'm really.really don't know what to say loh....
I'm really frustrated now...and crying now....
I just need a listening ear....
I don't know why, as I'm typing, my tears just couldn't stop flowing out....

Because of this wound, I feel like I've got no freedom at all....
Is like I really want to participate in certain things but somehow I've been stopped....
This 'thing' has really ruining my teenage years....
I just don't know what to do....
Stress from this and that....
Do you think I want it?!
I've got no choice....
I just feeling like dying....
In front of many people, no, maybe I should die silently...
I don't think my death is not a good thing to 'show-off'....
I really, really had enough of it....
Medicine, medicine and more medicines...
Just when can I stopped all this medication?
I'm really tired, and really had enough of it....
Is like I really have the feeling of leaving this house, leaving the family, leaving my relatives and friends...
Let my wound worsen, and lastly...death...
Somehow, I just don't know why I have this feeling....
Is like I don't want to cause anymore more trouble for my family and I really don't want them to waste anymore unnecessary money on me just to cure me....
It is just pointless to spend those money and yet it doesn't show any result....
Just what's the point of having vegetables and fruits everyday when this thing keeps bugging me?
I might as well die....
I really do have the feeling that I'll not live long....partially because of this?
Who knows?
I'm really sick and tired of it now...

Got to go le...bye...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It was crazy, total madness this afternoon....
The Band had waited for today for a long time....
And finally it came....the Marching Assessment...
I rushed to school at 12nooon....
Then I saw Mrs. (Stephanie)Lee was with her husband....
Just got out of the car with plastics of buns which was for the band....
Then I rushed the band down to the foyer....
More then 10 seniors were there....
Everyone was crazy to see each other....
Asking about this and that....

On the way to the National Stadium, the seniors who is us, took the same bus as the juniors which are the sec 1s....
All of us were so 'high-up'....
But the juniors were so quiet....
We got them to introduce themselves and the instruments they are playing....
Then the seniors introduced ourselves also....
The trip, from the school to the stadium was like high loh...
The band members, some were looked so tired, stressed up and some were not feeling quiet well too....
Initially I was really worried for them....
Although i had predicted for the band twice that everything would be a smooth one but i was still a bit like of paranoid....

Then the real thing started....
"Now performing is Band Number 2 , Canberra Secondary School Band" announced the emcee...
The whole group of us were really focused our vision to our band every single moves...
There were times we would cheered for them...
At the end, it finished...a very nice ending....

After the whole performing is done, which is after the display bands....
Here comes the results....
The emcee was really making us nervous when she said, "Before we start announce the results, I would like to take this opportunity to thank......"
It was just making us even more nervous.....
Then it came....
"Band Number 2, Canberra Secondary School Band.....
Certificate Of.............................DISTINCTION!!!"
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The whole group of us stood and jumped with joy.....
We just couldn't controlled our laughter and cheering.....
From the way to school, we still couldn't stop cheering....
Some were dropping their tears of joy....
Really, I have to say....
Good Job Band, you really have done us proud!
All your hard work has finally been paid off.....
You all should be rewarded with this certificate....
Well Done!
I had even messaged to Mdm Tan, our former band teacher-in-charge of our results...
She had congratulate you all!
Actually I also really felt like crying but couldn't cry out....
Really touching!!!
Thanks for all your hard work band....
And rest well, ok?

Got to go le...bye...

This coming week will be a very busy week for me....
Monday....
Which is tomorrow....
I'll be having a class from 10.10am to 11.10am....
Then I'll be rushing to my new school, Ngee Ann Polytechnic, for a programme...
Is a Freshman Orientation Programme...from 1pm till 5pm....
Will be like kind of rushy for me....
Will be leaving the school at around 11.30pm....
By the time I reach my school will be like an hour later....
Kind of nervous and excited that I'll be going to my school for a programme which I'll be getting a goodies bag and get to know my friends....

Tuesday....
Nothing much....
Will be having a class early in the morning....
I think from 8.10am to 9.10am....
Very early....
From there I don't have any class anymore but probably during recess time, a student might want to come and see me or something loh...
Then i might pop up at Ms. Ma's 4E2 class, just to inform them something....
Then from there go home and sleep loh....

Wednesday....
I'll be going with my primary school band for their SYF....
Kind of looking forward as well....
Well, obviously I've not listen to them and I really looking forward to listen to their song(s)....
That will be till the middle of the afternoon I hope....
Then in the evening I'll be with my secondary school band for their rehearsal at the National Stadium....
That will be until the evening hours....

Thursday....
I may or may not be going to my band's training...
It just a little bit too much of band....

Friday...
Is another rehearsal for Canberrans' Day....
Like kind of what loh....
That day some more is their last day of training for their Marching Assessment le....
Feel kind of sad for the band lah....
Now I can really feel that the band is really cooperate with each other....
And the spirit of teamwork is really there....
Keep that up Band!

Saturday....
That is what the Band, the teacher I/C and the seniors have been looking forward for....
The Marching Assessment Day....
I'll surely be there for it....
I've already booked my tickets with Ridwan liao....
Anyway, the tickets is not the reason that I've to go....
But I really don't want to let all my time training the band just to go down to drain....
And i really believe that the Band will really succeed, hopefully with a Certificate Of Distinction....
And I'll believe in them....
All the best band....

Sunday....
Nothing's on....
Can sleep throughout the day liao...
Hahahaha.......

Anyway, don't disturb me during this week ah....
The tagboard is still free for all to tag....
Got any message just tag me ok?
Got to go le...bye...

Going to post about yesterday....
Well, It's kind of tiring to teach a very naughty class....
But teaching has always been my favourite job so I don't really want to quit it...
Yesterday, got to teach this class again and was bit of pissed off by this class noisiness...
Cannot stand them....
This week is my second last week with them and yet they showed me this kind of discipline....
Of course before my class, these few 'jokers' whom I know, came into my class and disturbed by saying "Good Morning, Mr. Cruyff"....
Was damn funny loh....haha...lol....

Went for Band today, the whole parade was kind of screwed up....
Because of the band? Partially....
Ms. Mariah was totally pissed off and gave the Band 50 pumping....
Actually I know we're kind of harsh on them...
But that is for no choice....
Is not about their unknown of stuff but their music totally misplay....
Lots of things were done unnecessarily....
We know that you all have been stressed up because of the Marching Assessment plus this, the Canberrans' Day....
I can see that you all are very tired, but please bear with us for another 2-3 weeks and this will be over soon....
From there, you can have all the breaks you want....
You all can study all you want for your Mid-year exams....
Anyway, during this period, please bear in mind that even though we may be shouting at you all now but we'll definitely support you all the way....ok?
Work hard ah...

Got to go le...bye....