Sunday, October 28, 2012
真的实在是忍不住了！
被骂成那样子，心里一直都不好受
我是懒惰，但也不用说成那样吧！
我也知道你也很辛苦，家里已经够忙的了，
还得要骂我，提醒我
可是有很多事我真的很不服。
叫人家运动减肥，您自己呢？
还能到减肥中心。
不靠运动还能减成这样
你知道我心里是有多么羡慕吗？！
我知道，这句话说出来，爸爸也不好受
爸爸也想一心一意地减肥
减了这么多，那肚腩还在。
我也想减啊!
每次只要走在大街上，都会羡慕着街上的帅哥们
也就是因为这样。。。
心里已是不平衡之下了
我会减肥，但我不会改变我想做的自己
我会减肥，也会在减肥成功后去找自己想找的另一半
我会减肥，就是不要再让我讨厌的人看不起
我会减肥，让自己充满帅气，也能穿得更加时尚
心理已经不平衡了
让我好好地静一静
如何去面对这些问题
每次一被骂，不是想自杀，就是想搬出去
自己一个人住，不被人管制，不被唠叨
每次说我耳朵有问题，也不想想你们说的话不够大声
只会把罪怪在我头上，也不会反省自己是否做错
不要以为是我爹娘，老认为自己总是对的，孩子总是错的
我是长子，总得给我些面子吧
在某些方面，我是错得利普
但不至于都错
我相信时间是公平的
时间会证明一切
我要你们知道错在哪里
哼！！！
My mind's unweaving/ 12:54 AM
Thursday, October 25, 2012
心里好郁闷哦
为什么呢？
此时此刻我还不想公开某些私事
虽然已对某些人坦白了
但又后悔跟他们提起那些事
在这个现实的社会里，
有很多事情，想做都做不到。
有很多事情，又不能照着自己的方向走。
有很多事情，明明拥有着的自由却有好像没有。
此时才会感到郁闷啊。
好想到那些拥有这种自由的国家，好好地安顿自己。
没有人能妨碍或控制地生活着
去大胆地挑战一个从未拥有过的生活
看到那些受人注目的人或朋友，心里是多么的羡慕
妒忌与嫉妒
心里也好想这样
对某些人来说，这种‘机会’是个骗局
对于我来说，是个好机会啊！
为什么我就是没有那样的命啊？！
我羡慕街上的人，偶尔也羡慕身边的人
这十几年来，我都没有达到自己想要的。
只能默默地。。。
My mind's unweaving/ 2:43 AM
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Sometimes, I just don't like the way my mother handle things.
You handed the responsibilities to me to coach him.
And now, I really feel that you are not believing me in my way of handling.
I know what's best for him.
You have been out of the society for too long, especially the changes in education.
You just don't understand the system, so shut up.
I know what I'm doing.
You pleaded me to coach him, to train him.
And now, you interrupted my training, thinking that I'm too strict on him.
The truth is, this is the reality.
The system is not as simple as you think.
If you really think it is that simple, you coach him.
What's the point of asking me to coach when you think I'm too harsh on him.
Why don't YOU be the good person here?
Like I said, it is reality.
MOE is putting more and more stress on Primary School syllabus.
And once they get to Secondary School, it will be even worse.
And thus, my training.
And I'll make sure that his Oral is of a higher standard.
And not just that, his languages as well.
I know just what the examiners are looking out for.
That's why I'm putting all the stress.
And that's why you have put him in my hands.
If you think you are so clear of his mistakes and what the examiners want, you take him, I'm not taking the responsibility,
But if you place him in my care, you jolly well respect what I'm going to do.
I am putting stress, putting things which you think is redundant.
But everything I do, is for his future.
既然把责任交给我，就别多管闲事。
当时您是怎么求我的。说过要求我一个月的时间来调教与督促他的功课。
我是很不愿意，因为我没有那个能力。没有能力去管教一个小学学生，更别说是去督促他的功课与考试预备。
不过您已经把责任托付于我，就请您别干预与干涉我的教学。
您每次认为您说的都是对的，并没发现有时候是错的。
我要您知道我们也有对的时候。
My mind's unweaving/ 1:21 AM
