Today I'll be having my Internetworking test...
So scared lah...
I failed my theory test VLSM already...
Lab test...
sigh...
Tomorrow, CISCO online final (closed book) quiz...
Even scarier...
I'm going to die like that...
Next week, Computer Programming Lab test...
Even sian...
Loop, Branching...
I don't know much about both lah...
This is the 16th week of my school semester...
Week 18 will be my exams le...
On the Friday will be my Engineering Mathematics 1(EG1) from 9am till 11am...
On the Saturday will be my Electrical Technology(ELTECH) from 9am till 11am also...
Wah, still need to wait...
But at least got time to study for ELTECH...
Which is one of my worst module although I passed my common test for this...
I'm going to be shack out soon...
But it's going to be another two weeks and it will be over...
By then, I can relax le...
Haha....
LOL...

Got to go le...bye...

If you are asking me how many links I have...
Currently, I have 150 links...
Haha...
Yea, I crazy already...
Too many friends already...
Haha...

Got to go le...bye...

Finally, everything is over...
P&C concert, SIBF competition, and Outreach performance....
Everything finish le...
Finally I can really take a rest already...
I wanted to sleep for long hours but come to think that I still got work and schoolwork to do...
Sian...
Good luck for me...

Got to go le...bye...

I now in Internetworking class now...
Our lecturer quite lenient lah...
So I blog now loh...
Previous, I was in ELTECH tutorial class...
First time I'm the last one to stay with Zi Xuan....
Was doing a question until I very confused....
Initially I didn't really pay well attention in lecture class and made myself so confused when doing a problem sum...
Then was somehow scolded by Mr. Lau (Though I had shown my excuse letter)..
He said I had better not go for competition...
I should focus more in class...
Then I like what lah...
Listen to him say this kind of thing, kind of hurts me lah...
I know in his class, I sometimes cannot focus, but that doesn't mean everytime mah...

At least now I understand 60-65% of the whole thing mah...
I don't go for competition, I rather die lah, like that...
Practice for so hard already...
Some more music is my life leh...
I can forgive him for not understand me but I cannot stand that phrase he said to me lah...
I know because of band, I have no time for study...
But things like this are inevitable one mah...
Very sad...
I know he meant us well, but there are things which we cannot control one mah...
Really tired....

Got to go le...bye...

It has been a week since I last blog...
I have seen many people's concern over me...
Really thankful and gladful for that...
Especially my daddy whom I didn't expect him to tag my blog...
Trying to find a time to change my URL...
It seems that my blogskin is getting a little bit too old...
Should get it 'reborn'...

This week is going to be a hectic week because of band again...
Tomorrow, band practice for competition...
Tuesday, saxophone sectional...
Wednesday, extra band practice for competition...
Thursday, competition!!!
Friday, little sectional with Faiezah and Ansar, a new clarinetist...
Saturday, band practice for Sentosa performance...
Sunday, Sentosa performance!!!

Crazy right?!
But no choice...
Who ask to like band so much?
Haha...
Will really be busy lah...
Hopefully I'll be able to cope with my study well, especially for this week...
I'm going to miss one day lesson which I think I'll die...
Haha...
Going to miss one Computer Programming lesson, ELTECH lesson and Internetworking practical lesson...
Gosh...
All the best for me!!!

Got to go le...bye...

The day has come....
The day which I've been expecting has come...
The returning of my wound...
These few days has been a torturing one for me...
Ever since band camp had ended, i thought that everything will be fine again...
But it seems that I'm wrong...
These few days was really another painful experience for me...
Today do I realised that the wound had started to bloat up again...
Then my mum try to squeeze the discharges out and there you go, a big hole has landed on my skin...
Discharges, blood had been squeezed out...
It's really painful lah...
Almost crying...
Actually before this, I was really crying in my mum's room(as I was told to look after my brother till he slept)....
I was like kind of 'stressful' like that...
I actually recalled one of my doctors' words, "If this thing reaches the tail bone, it will lead to paralyzation"....
His words really, really freaks me out, till today...
I'm prepared, but I'll regret...
And I'll miss lots of people and stuffs...
Paralyzation, this words really scares me till I cried, which what happened just now...
The only way is to remove everything 'dirty' beneath the skin and to ensure that it doesn't reach the tail bone...
But another doctor told me that, the more surgery I get, the worst the wound will get and the scar will become bigger and bigger....
I'm now really scared lah...
Don't know what to do...
Whether should I be continuing band and my course temporary or not...
It's really hurtful lah....
Be it mentally or physically...
Sometimes I try to control myself from thinking bad stuffs but still, I couldn't stop thinking things of the dark side...
And like one of my doctors had said before, "This wound will take about a decade to end"...
I really wanted to burst out into tears lah...
But I couldn't...
For the next few days, I'll try to control myself...
And try not to sit too long...
For now I've a dressing on my wound...

Got to go le...bye...

This week is really a insanity...
I'm sure to go crazy after today...

Monday- Basic Japanese(Hiragana Test 3) & Communication Toolkit(2-minute Speech)
It was okay lah...
I know I pass with full marks for my Hiragana test 1 & 2...
Test 3, a piece of cake...
Also, I had my 2-minutes speech...
I exceeded the limit of 2 min 15 sec by 40 seconds....
But I wasn't the worst one lah..
There are people who exceeded and people who couldn't reach the limit...
I think I should be okay bah...

Tuesday- Engineering Technical(Laboratory Test)
Was quite nervous lah...
Mr. Lau had sent us a message that everyone in my class passed, highest 100, lowest 55...
During the test, my mind was like kind of blank and don't know what to do when I looked at the questions...
I consulted quite a few times...
Managed to get through lah...

Wednesday- Engineering Mathematics 1 quiz(Trigonometry)
Was actually kind of easy lah...
But for angular velocity I have to look at Zi Xuan lah...
I didn't revise for that part...
Proving, was okay..
I was actually kind of stuck then Kelvin suddenly reminded me the Tangent = sine/cosine...
Then I know how le...
Haha...

Thursday- Internetworking Test(Subnetting Test)
One sentence- I screwed it up...
I was actually really revising lah...
Then it came out not to my expectation...
Very sad lah...
I have been revising class C which is like kept giving me question of /23...
Then the question of IP address with /24...
I stuck there lah...
Sad sia...

Friday- Computer Programming(Switch, Loop)
Not really well-prepared for it...
Question 1 was easy, I'm sure many people know how to do...
Question 2 was 50-50...
Question 3 was horrible...
Me, Elijah & Eugene was discussing about it lah...
All of us had almost the same view lah...

Then went SGH to meet my family...
Thanks Elijah! For guiding me the way to SGH...
And thank you for chatting with me!
It appears that one of my Great-granduncle had just passed away....
Sad lah...

Now is like still considering of changing course or not...
Planning to change to Chinese Studies...
But still considering lah...
Not really planned already or what...
Will be discussing with my family and relatives to see what's their views then I'll make my decision...

Got to go le...bye...

Stress is a common thing...

Today already like a learning experience like that...
Well, know what?
There has been a few 'stress' cases going around...
Well, only then I know stress is a common thing...
What my friends reacted to stress is really 'astonishing'...
To be happy, to taste the sweetest of success, stress is the only thing to overcome, to conquer...
My way, laughter...
Those who knows me well, will know how I overcome my stress...
Last time, I used to cry...
Now(very funny), is either I laugh or sing out loud...
Sing until my voice break...
Is just like shouting out loud but I don't want to shout, I want to sing...
Different songs indicate different feelings of what I'm experiencing...
Is something which shouldn't be existed in our mind from the very start...
The more you think about it, the more you are really stress...

For me, I'm happy, I sing, sad also sing...
Last time when I was young, I used to sing to force out my tears...
Actually now, still happening but seldom...
Now, songs is just a 'exposure-of-feelings instrument'...
Is very useful...
You all should try it...
When you are stress, lock yourself in your room, turn on your favourite song and sing out loud...
It's not siao, but trust me, it does work...
For starters, they will tend to force out their tears by singing, it depends on what kind of songs...
Sad songs, apparently it will work...
For some people, is either they shout or write it diary or blog...
The best way is still find a friend, settle down, talk and chat about your problems and see if they are able to help you...
To all friends, don't give yourself too much stress, relax at all times...
Try my method, if it's work, good for you, if not, I will try to think of other ways to help you, ok?
Stay happy always!

Got to go le...bye...

Thanks my friend for your care as shown in the tagboard...
I'm fine now...
Well, my character is that I'm easily get into mixed feelings when situation happens...
Even for now, I'm still considering whether to change course or not...
Changing course for my interest, not changing course because I don't want to repeat my IS...
Also don't want to waste my parents' money and waste my time lah...
So frustrating....
Also, still considering whether to find another CCA or not...
I want to look for another interest but time is my concern....
Lots of clashes means lots of harm for me...
SO FRUSTRATING LAH!!!
Haha......I siao already.....haha.....

Well, people who know me well should know that I like music...
Really wanted to learn lots of things lah...
Like not only band, also getting into stuffs like choir(which I had in primary school) and dancesport(which I may consider for my Sports & Wellness)...
But problem is I wanted to have everything at one go...
Means band, choir and dancesport together...
Is like, I wanted to try to have a musical day of my life...
It may sounds crazy, insane, ridiculous but that's what I'm trying to have after everything...
I'm just couldn't wait already...
I'm just hoping for this kind of life to come...
Only when I'm in my youth time...
Also, I have one wish that has always coming in the first in my life...
People who know me well will know, I'm not going to put in here...
Haha...
Those who want to guess, you may do so...
Then come and tell me your answer loh...
Ok lah, enough of crap, this coming week, I'll be having 1 quiz and 2 tests....
Oh my god, all these are killing me...
Got to be prepared for that...

Got to go le...bye...

My heart won't be feeling too good these few days...
So I'try to control myself...

Got to go le...bye...