Friday, February 8, 2008
As usual, not really excited about occasions like this...
New Year, Chinese New Year, even my own birthday which will be this coming March...
All this keeps going on and on...
Kind of tired...
Yesterday,(as usual again) went to my great-grandmother's house...
All my relatives were squeezing in that house...
Every year's the same, all generations, young and old will always go to her house on the first day of Chinese New Year, is standard...
Then got to visit another great-grandmother who is in a Old Folks' Home at Geylang...
Her husband, my great-grandfather, came there on his own...
Lots of laughter as well...
For today, I went to my great-grandaunt's house...
Also got to see relatives whom I had never seen before...
I had this uncle who is just 18 and a aunt who is in her 20...
People like them don't really like us to call them uncle and aunty because of the age...
But because of the generation, no choice...
Kind of stressful when I always make this visit to my relatives of the top generation...
Why?
My grandfather is the elders among his generation and siblings...
My father is the elders among his generation and siblings...
For me, it is obvious that I'm the elders of my generations and siblings...
Many people and relatives kept asking me whether i have a girlfriend or not, when I want to find a girlfriend to carry on a fifth generation, so as not to let my them worry...
You see?! Stress or not?!
I don't know why, for the past two days, I have been thinking about Stephanie...
Somehow, still have this feeling that I cannot let go of her...
My mother even wants to a match-making for me...
I also want to find a girlfriend, also want to marry young, but look at me first...
In this world, there's no second girl who is as good as Stephanie, nor even better than her...
Really tired of them keep telling me the same thing...
Seeing that all my young aunties and uncles having boyfriends and girlfriends respectively...
I really feel so 'extra'...
Really really regret that I didn't get the address from Mr. Dinesh...
Sometimes really feel that god is playing a fool with me...
Feel like crying...
Even my friends are going out on a date while I'm still single...
I think I better stop here lah...
The more I say, the more I want to cry...
Got to go le...bye...
My mind's unweaving/ 3:38 AM
