Friday, February 22, 2008
Flu for four days le...
It hasn't stopped...
Help me ah...
Feel so stressed up even though school has not reopen yet...
Parents nagging...
Yes, Iam lazy, I am fat, fatter than before...
Cannot use my illness as an excuse anymore...
Keep hurrying me to find a job...
Today...hais...
All I want to do is just teaching...
But my parents want me to do something realistic...rather than waiting for the school to call...
My mum always used her past life to compare with me...
Past is past, present is present...
I know they want me me to be down-to-earth, want me to slim down...
Maybe it just purely laziness that i couldn't even control...
What i need is just some motivation...
People have been seeing me growing fatter and fatter...
I just don't know what is wrong with this world...
Purchasing our own interest has become a major problem...
i really hate myself for my laziness, my stubborn-ness and my slow reaction...
I'm really kind of tire...of this world...
Even for my own birthday...
Don't really have that feeling and mood to celebrate...
I just want alone...
In a space of my own...
With my own interest...
A world of my own...
To relax with my hobby...
Forever and ever....
In the space and world of my own...
Don't know where to go, what to do...
To leave this pressurising world...
To leave this realistic world...
To leave this hopeless world...
To a place of my interest...
To a place of my style...
To a place of magical hopes for me...
How I wish that will be my wish for my birthday...
Cast a spell on me...
End me with a thousand years of sleep...
Enable me to wake in a land of wish...
Let me be one who is totally 'different'...in terms of wisdom and health...
Let it be a disguise of my terrible past...
Enable me to forget who I was once before...
The one of his laziness, slow-reacted and stubborning character which will not be forgiven...
I really want to sleep soundlessly and endlessly without anyone's knowledge...
On my birthday...alone and silent shall company me forever...and ever...
Got to go le...bye...
My mind's unweaving/ 1:15 AM
