Friday, May 9, 2008
Ok, it's just crap today...
Firstly, the release of the Ambassador results will only be released on next monday....
Sian....
Yesterday woke up with a very bad backache and leg muscle was very pain....
Then I got Hoi Him and Zi Xuan to slam my back real hard....
It was really, really a bad backache that I really cannot tolerate loh...
It took one whole day to recover...
Know what? My mother wants to bring me for a hair-cut....
Is like she's totally don't like my hairstyle lah....
Is like what loh....she still said no rejection....
She doesn't even know whether I'm happy or not loh....
You see, I really want to enjoy my teenage with this hairstyle then when comes to NS, I'll left with no regrets....
She doesn't seems to understand what I'm thinking...
Is not that I don't want to tell her my feeling, but her damn serious thinking makes me don't feel like talking to her....
Sometimes she'll tend to ask me why I don't want to talk to her about my feelings, is just plaining because of her own way of thinking....
I know she's doing good for me lah but she doesn't concern whether i'm happy or not....
Many things I can take it but not cutting of my hair....
I really just hope I can talk to my father who is really a lot more better than my mother....
My father will really gives me a comfortable feeling when we talk....
To my mother, a lot more harder....
But for Mothers' Day tomorrow, I try not to make her angry as it is very special day for all mothers...
I will only try not to make her angry, if she doesn't talk about cutting my hair....
If that really happens, I can tell, i can don't talk to her the whole....
You know what?
When I'm typing this now, I feel like my 'hatred' for this, is building up leh....
Listening to music also cannot cure....
I just want to have my own freedom of having whatever hairstyle I like....
I actually felt like talking to Aunty Amy who is Xin Hao's mother....
Both of us are just like friends more than a aunty and son's friend....(hope is not confusing)...
Maybe i might call her up tonight...
Got to go le...bye...
My mind's unweaving/ 6:16 PM
