Today is such an weird(lucky) day...
This afternoon when I was on my way to school...
I was crossing the road which there was no car at all...
When I reached the MRT station, it left one minute for the train to come when I reached the platform...
Then when I reached Clementi, once I had reached the bus stop, 184 bus which was actually all students' favourite bus came...
Then I reached school, still got time, when to check something...
When for band, everything went prefectly fine...
Just that got one piece really real hard to sight read...
Then meet my sister back at Clementi, then meet our parents at Tampines...
Only see my mother with my younger brother...
My father would picked us later...
We went to eat a bit of Macdonald's...
Then we walked around...

We happened to see durian mooncakes which is like kind of tempting...
Then we even saw mooncakes in the format of the chinese chess...
Actually I wanted to take a photo of it but they said we couldn't...
Then my mother and sister went to see some ladies' clothing while my brother and I went to the guys' section...
Saw lots of nice clothing...
My mother kept offering me whether I want to buy this and buy that...
I kept rejecting...
I know this is very wrong and hurtful to her...
But if I buy, it is very hurtful for me....
(One very simple reason is, I had promise myself that till the day when I had slim down, then I will buy cool clothing....
For now, I just want to cut down all my fats first...
Especially my chest, which my father actually understand how I feel everytime when I wear my clothes and my chest always stands out to be the worse part of all...
And that I want to reduce from there...
(I know whoever reads my blog, after that they will start to observe me which will really give me a great pressure...)
But this reason, my mother doesn't know about it...
I actually just told my father...)

Then my father came, brought us to East Coast Park for dinner, especially stingray...
But I don't dare to take anything, except a cup of soursop drink and a few sticks of satay...
Then later I will be going off for a night jog...
Maybe alone, maybe with my father...
I don't know...

Next monday, I'll be taking over Ms. Ma again...
This day is a pressurising day for me...
A day whether I should be choosing to continue this relief teaching or go for the Red Camp 5 Games Trial...
Both are very important, but after a serious consideration, I decided to go for the relief teaching...
Which I consider as a important one...
Red Camp 5 may add on to my stress when school reopens...
No offense here, but what I said is just my personal opinion and feelings...
I had really decided to give up as Red Camp 5 Student Leader...
That is for no choice...
Life is like that...
There will always be a time whereby you have to make an important decision...
At a most important timing...
I really feel guilty now, for lots of things...
For my body, and for the Ambassadors who had made changes for me but yet I'd decided to gave up...
I'm really terribly sorry, Ambassadors...
I'm really sorry for the trouble that I've made...
No one knows this thing will happened...
I didn't expect this situation...
I'm sorry...
Terribly sorry...
Truly sorry...
Especially one of my best friends, Sarah...
Sorry for the trouble, the call in the middle of the night and the changes...
I'm sorry....
I'm also hurt now...
My heart is also aching now...
I'm also felt sorry for myself for my terrible weakness...
Till now, then I know that, I'm not fated or destined to become a Student Leader....
I'm not suitable to be one...
Probably...

Got to go le...bye...