Tuesday, November 25, 2008
My wound is back to its action again...
This morning, on my way to the MRT station...
I almost burst into tears...
It was so painful that it was really unbearable...
And for no reason...
I thought of other stuffs...
Some bad scenario which I don't think it's appropriate to say....
And also, thinking back to the past...
Sad past...
I was totally, almost going to break down...
I wanted to carry on with my responsibility...
But its just that...
It's very hindering of this 'thing'...
No time for self care...
No time for doctors...
It's just disturbing...
How I wish I can talk to somebody who is close to me...
I mean, not just family...
But friends whom I have been so happy with...
It's really, really hurtful...
My pain is acting up...
My heart is aching...
Wanted tp cry but couldn't...
Not an appropriate place and time to let it out now...
Can someone/somebody chat with me? Please...
I really, really cannot stand it...
I don't like my life...
I don't like my health life...
I feel so stressful and jealous whenever there's a healthy person or people walking past me or appear right in front of me...
Really tired...
I wanted to end this nonsense...
Who can help me...
Relationship...only consolation...
Doctors...only medication...
Surgers...worse...no difference from suffocation...
I just wanted to have an endless sleep...
Forget what I'm doing now...
Forget what and how my life have been...
Wanted my soul to leave this pathetic person...
Really, really, very tired now...
Got to go le...bye...
My mind's unweaving/ 3:37 PM