Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Today, I just want to clarify something with whoever is going to read my blog...
In a few months' time, I'll be shifting house...
To be more exact, is down-grading...
Over the years, ever since my family and I had shifted to Sembawang...
Things always do not went as smoothly as we want...
Especially when comes to money/financial needs...
Everyone should know that my father works as a policeman for 20 years...
Because of house financial, he almost lost his job...
The debts that he'd been owing has to be returned by one of our relatives...
In the past, especially my siblings and I, don't know how to spend money wisely...
When comes to housing fees, car taxes, have to go by credit...
All these goes on...
When today my mother said that the person will be coming up to our to photoshoot our house...
And I have to clean up my room...
Because of all these problems, I lost my appetite and end up scolding by my mum for not telling her that I'm not eating so that she can save the effort for cooking my share...
I know I was in a wrong...
Everyone felt that I'm not caring for the family...
I'm too, am stressed up...
How I wished that all things never happened...
I wanted to contribute to this family...
How I wanted to spend sometime with my mother, especially...
Ever since I have entered poly...
I'm becoming even more self-centered...
Which I don't know why...
Not just family...
My friends, my relatives...
WHY ME????!!!!!
Crying by myself now...
No one to talk to...
Listening to DBSK's "Holding Back My Tears"...
Cry out all my emo thoughts...
How I want to hug someone close to cry...
SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY!!!!!!
I'm really, very sorry to everyone whom I've upset...
I really don't know what's happening to me...
I don't feel like playing for Rondeau already...
Let work drain me...
It's just sad...
My mind's unweaving/ 7:04 AM
