Thursday, January 14, 2010
Ever since Rondeau ended, my heart always have that empty feeling...
It just felt like I'm really going to leave this band...
I just feel so sad that my parents are 'requesting' me to quit this band...
Somehow, I really don't want to end my poly life this way...
It won't give me a sense of satisfaction, even if I score if a scholarship (which won't happen)...
Everyone knows that I have a hard time struggling with this course as I don't have that interest...
How can I possibly be getting a scholarship with a course that I've been struggling for almost 2 years?
Right now, I'm really getting worried for my attachment...
Till now, there's still no call from any places...
Even if I've got, I don't know how I am going to tackle those interview questions...
Back to band...
I seriously going to miss the band...
My dream was to complete all my concerts with this band...
I have been enjoying myself throughout this whole period of practicing...
All the friendship I've made in this band...
It's just inseparable...
I don't know how to tell my parents that how I really wanted to stay longer in this band...
But for sure, they will 'counter-attack' me back with families, money etc...
Just on the day after concert, I've shared my problems with my fellow committee members...
They understood and sympathized my situation...
I want to continue in the committee...
Whatever I have and want to experience do leave me lots of memories...
How nostalgic...
Anyway, after NS, (If I'm able to get into University) I've decided to look for a course which got to do with Geology Studies...
Or even language studies...
But my interests suddenly heightens at Geology Studies...
I want to learn more about Natural Disasters...
It just triggered my excitement, which I don't know why, it just interest me just like that...
Very tired now, going to work tomorrow...
Got to go le...bye...
My mind's unweaving/ 8:04 AM
